(: Exams are in 3 days' time. & asking me what I've learnt & if I've prepared myself, NOTHING. Yes, did try to study, did try to get into the study mode. But nope, just can't do it. Started to feel really awful again, for the past week. YOU WON'T KNOW IT. Get what I mean? (:
I don't like to start a quarrel. No argument too. I like to be friends with anyone & everyone. Those retarded things are the last things I ever wanna do. It's like an atomic bomb, killing everyone in the way, not only the people involved. So if I have a choice, no enemy, no frienemy [Is this how you spell it?].
I feel like backspacing everything I just typed out. I don't even know what I'm trying to drive at HAHA! Idiot.
Anyways, just wanna say that, if there's anything to be said to me, anything that anyone wants me to listen to, come up right to me (: I'd just take it. Why try to act all so anonymous in whatever you do? & hoping that I get it? Nope, I need you to say it to me.
OKAY ENOUGH, HAHA! I don't know what to say already. Lastly, I love my friends! ♥ I really do. Cherishing every single one. That's if you consider me as one too.
If dear clique & friends are reading my current post now, I miss you. The awesome times, I'll never forget (:
HELLO GIRL, YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE BUT STUDYING. WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO ON YOUR BLOG? DOES IT GIVE YOU ANSWERS TO YOUR QUESTIONS!?
So, chatted with Adriel over the phone yesterday. Ha, it's really been such a long time! & it was rather fun talking to him. We were too busy with our own individual businesses. Me with my new life in poly, & him preparing for Os. We don't even know what really happened last year haha.
*Staring at this page for 15 mins & I don't know how to continue with it!*
Alright, so just wanna dedicate this paragraph to you. Thanking you for talking to me last night, taking my mind off for awhile. If I get a chance, I'll take up mountain biking alright? Had been rather stressful, I feel. & complicated?
My life is like a potion, things mixing together as one. But the end product isn't done yet. Still in progress! So how would it be like? No one knows. But the process, of course, I can get a little taste of it while adding a little this & that. & yupp, hoping for the best.
P.S I will no longer be that girl with the almost fake identity.
Everyone might think that I'm independent & all,
But no one knows it was all an act.
Best friends, Boyfs, People who are close to me.
I was "alright" with everything,
Just to go along with everyone,
Thinking what's best for others,
But not for myself.
Rather than everyone getting the hurt & injuries,
I might as well be the heroine?
I thought I was rather cool saying things that I don't even mean inside.
Instead of someone else getting hurt,
Having to bear with all the difficulties,
I might as well be the one to save?
That's the only thing I can do.
Because I care that's why I'm doing it.
This is not for credits & NOT to make one feels bad about it.
But now after I learned it the hard way,
I don't think I'm suitable for this at all.
Crying all alone in bed after that doesn't feel good.
No one being there for you & nobody knows anything.
I'm gonna take off the smiling mask I'd been wearing in front of you.
& start wearing the armor as I move on in the fight.
Not gonna give in/up,
Not gonna say "No, it's alright".
HWAITING! (:
Okay this is totally "hahahaha". Just some random post I guess. What's wrong with me! I don't usually post in such a manner. Ohwells!
Started blogging at 2120 but look at the time now! I NEEDA GO STUDY! I already feel like I'm gonna get killed in the exam hall! & my neck hurts like shit as I keep tilting my head to get my fringe off my sight, & also my habit. Annoying.
Till then! Bye! ♥
